Life is full of nightmares that are enormous and dark like whales.
Sometimes it’s like standing at the side of the highway doing nothing,
others it’s like dodging speeding trucks. I get older but I still
get everything wrong. I still trip on my shoes and take pills
I find in the carpet.I think everyone I’ve slept with is precious
and important. I want to call them all up and hold them
against my chest like a bundle of daffodils. It takes a serious heft
of my self control to not run through the streets barefoot
every day, or walk into the ocean and let her take me.
This is how I want to die; in a boat, on fire
while Billie Holliday crawls out of a speaker.
I want everyone to be watching.
His mother calls him honey, I want to call her and say
you did your best, your son has many wonderful qualities
and I like him. I like him with the dismal hope of a dog begging
for chocolate. I have read a lot of literature on whether our star signs
are compatible, the consensus is that the connection is magnetic
when mutual, but of course, it never is. I know your ex husband
is a pisces because he said my dad is a pisces, what are pisces’ people like?
I held him and said in my experience they are kind and artistic
but they don’t always do the right thing.